Dear God,

It's been a while since we've talked. Have I disappointed you? I'm sure I have, but you know me--I'm still not sure where I stand when it comes to faith and all. You know how much I want to believe, but I just can't. Today though, I felt like I might one day. Who knows?

I've kinda missed you. I'm sorry I haven't really been around, but I've been really lost y'know? And it's not like I was really raised to have faith in you. I've shied away from you lately, and I still don't understand anything but here I am.

Blergh.

What am I supposed to be doing?

Yikes.

I started yet another one of these blog thingies.

Well, after like six years and some months I am totally 100% single!

And it's downright scary. =(

My ex and I broke up a couple months ago actually but until yesterday we didn't have any real closure on the whole thing. I think he was secretly hoping I'd ask him to come back. There was also this guy I had something (I'm not really sure what it was) going with at work, but I told him I couldn't do it anymore in an e-mail today. That kinda sucked. I really liked the guy. He's single but not available if you know what I mean. So I broke things off with him. I don't need to be in a relationship right now anyway.

I'm awfully lonely though...

Well here's to the open road. Cheers.